summer made me blue; summer gave me sky

by heroin party

supported by
gastlly thumbnail
gastlly I've loved this album for years. I wish I knew how many times I've listened to it. All of Sam's music seems to meet you in the pits of depression and hold your hand as you walk through it, but this one is especially poignant. I plan to get a different version of the album cover tattooed at some point. Thank you, Sam. Favorite track: summoning ritual.
wooguzz thumbnail
wooguzz listening to this, over and over, every day, brushing into things soon to be misplaced, knowing that it's the same thing, and that what stands is walking in a straight line, a tightrope, feeling the grooves beneath your feet, waiting to feel slack, letting it take control, a crossroad. that's not it Favorite track: if i cleaned everything would you come back_variations on a theme.
ohad gilbert
ohad gilbert thumbnail
ohad gilbert feelings and stuff Favorite track: if i cleaned everything would you come back_variations on a theme.
more... more...
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price


it's just - i don't know. it's like - it's like a really good dream that you have and you keep thinking about it. i have a lot of dreams. when i'm awake i have a lot of dreams. all day. when i'm driving. when i'm out. when i'm home. it's all i do - dream about things. i dream about somewhere i could go. i can just be there. i don't know. i dream about a lot of things. mostly when i dream i dream about all the things i've lost, and i think from an early age you have to get used to losing things - cause if you don't, things get really bad all the time. so you have to get used to letting go of things and never getting them back. but that doesn't mean you don't think about all the things you lose still. cause i still do. and i didn't want to lose a lot of the things i lost but i did - i did and it's my fault. i don't know how to make that right - i don't think i could. but i still think about it, and even if i didn't think about it i'd still dream about it and i dream all the time.
monument 02:44
i hear you in the kitchen and i know i should go to the kitchen too. i’m waiting for someone to text me and i’m slowly building machines out of my thoughts. i’m taking advice from people on facebook. i should go join you in the kitchen but i’m busy building this monument; it looms over everything. i can’t get out of bed.
climax 03:03
here in the dark i am strong i beat my fists against your chest and reshape your bones to fit my needs and i'm not going to eat again because food only brings me pain i'm going to be beautiful my body will float above my bed held there with rope and like some summoning ritual from your childhood you'll trace your fingers around each of my ribs and you won't be able to look me in the eye for weeks
adam4adam 04:12
60 year old men crave me ask if they can pay me i try to explain that my cat had to be put down i don’t have the energy ask if they can find me heroin if they know of a generous doctor i try to explain i’m dying i only sleep with 40 year old youth pastors
invite moths into your home
if i cleaned everything would you come back


a drone/ambient collection i wrote and recorded from november 2011 through late october 2012, originally released under the name 'heroin party'
credits from the original bandcamp -
thanks to hayden for the poem in 'adam4adam'
thanks to iphi for lending her voice to 'monument'
thanks to ryan for contributing chord organ to 'things fall out of my life and disappear' and his voice to 'if i cleaned everything'
thanks to caroline for contributing viola and vocals to 'if i cleaned everything'
thanks to abby for cello and vocals on 'if i cleaned everything'
finally, thanks to bryce for the photos used for the cover.
check out more of his photos here


released December 31, 2012


all rights reserved



Ricky Eat Acid Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

Ricky Eat Acid is Sam Ray - from Baltimore, living in Philadelphia.
Creating new beautiful escapist death- art in quarantine.

new album coming soon via PRETTY-WAVVY
email / contact for anything -

"Alexander Wept"
... more

contact / help

Contact Ricky Eat Acid

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this album or account

Ricky Eat Acid recommends:

If you like summer made me blue; summer gave me sky, you may also like: